chubs for all
2002-01-14 at 3:53 p.m.

I spent almost all day rearranging my showroom. I moved 2 rooms around and had to re-wire the computer and phone, etc. I like it alot better, wish you could come over and check it out. I was hoping that I would get hords of people in while doing this, cuz you know that's always what happens. If I want people in, I normally will start vacuuming, but didn't happen this time. At least it is spic and span clean, except for the kitchen area which I will clean tomorrow.

I don't know what my problem is lately. I went to bed early last night ad set the alarm for 7am. A little dance with the snooze button and I still got up at 830am. 9 1/2 hours sleep? What is up with that? I don't know what I can do to train my body to wake up earlier, since the alarm thing doesn't do much. I am eating tons of spinach too, so it isn't an iron deficiency!? Oh, maybe it is a sex deficiency? My vibrator is working again, yet that's not even getting any action!? Maybe I should go back to slushy drinking again...

I am so glad it is Friday for me. I am so in the mood for a day off tomorrow. I was going to go to Denver this weekend, but my ride changed days and now I am stuck here. I totally cleaned my downstairs, so tonight I have to work on my upstairs so tomorrow I will have absolutely not a thing to do, except maybe go work out.

I also had a well-needed pedicure last night. These dogs a mine are soft as a baby's ass right now with no one to share with except my bunny.

Was thinking of seeing "Ali"

tonight. Anyone seen it yet? Let me know if I should spend the change. Certainly NOT spending it on Vanilla Sky.

I got out of the shower today and caught a glimpse of myself in the full length mirror I put up in the bathroom. EEEEEECK! Scared the hell out of myself! Does anyone else hate their body as much as I do? It doesn't matter how much weight I lose, I still think I am grotesquely fat. I must say, my abs are looking more like when I was 19, but still. Ick! I would love to go to a nudist camp someday, but couldn't even think about getting nekked in front of others (meaning more than one...okay, two). Yes, I know there are worse visions than mine, but still. I gave up the dancing naked in my house when it turned colder here, thank goodness. But why can't I just accept my 'chubs' (I call that area that meets in the top part of the inner thigh) or my sagging breasts? I wish I could just exchange my body from the knees to my armpits. What the hell, am I 65 already? I would also like to run around naked in the mountains while camping with someone, but fear I may scare the wildlife. Ughhh, getting older sucks! (edited 4:30pm...I feel muchh better after adding my entry only to go read miss hot thang and miss mimi's link to real women. Go check it out! I feel much better about my womanhood.

Oh, bi the way...I know you are here! So why not sign the book?

I am grateful for: Pinesol, clean dishes, and chocolate brown eyes on any stranger.