Horn dog alert
2002-02-08 at 12:49 p.m.

So my darlin' brought me lunch yesterday and all I wanted to do was jump across my Stickley desk and suck face for hours, or maybe try out the bed in the showroom. but no, I restrained my self to grinning from ear to ear. And then we spent the afternoon emailing back and forth. Geez, what am I in high school again?

I was a little afraid to go to my guitar lesson last night considering I have missed 2 weeks and hadn't practiced but 3 times in that period. But I did well and am now learning "Fever" with some new strum/pick patterns. God, will I ever get it? I changed my lesson next week to Tuesday instead of Thursday and my teacher is 'expecting' me to be able to do "Redemption Song" to perfection. So I MUST add practicing to my schedule, which is quite new right now.

Funny how you fall into a pattern with job, sleep, errands, etc. Now I have a totally new time schedule and lots of things to fill the off time with and I haven't found my groove yet. Of course I will be keeping my evenings free for potential spontaneous makeout schedules with Ryan.

I know I sound like a lovesick school girl, but geez, any more nights like last night and I will be quite the horn dog.

He came over last night after my lesson and we made dinner and watched a movie (although we both don't remember any of the movies we have 'seen' due to make otu sessions.) I have never laughed and talked with anyone like I do with him, and I am not ready to send him home after a few hours. Since we were joking about not having sex we decided (I think?) to wait 4 months. Although if we both agree that it is too long we have the option to discuss an alternate length of time. I think we were joking!? But if not, then I am willing to wait. Even if I have to also break up with my vibrator. This not having sex thing is kind of fun. It forces you to appreciate other things like talking and laughing and kissing and...whatever, I will quit now.

So the weather today is ::insert Grinch voice:: fab-u-lous! Easily short sleeve t-shirt weather in the sun, of course this is after the frost melts around 10am. looking forward to Spring in a big way. Just being able to go hiking without 5 layers will be nice, as well as washing the car and having it last for months.

saw Liza this morning and she is not doing well in her infatuation department. It seems Len is avoiding her and she is getting a little down. I wish I could stop grinning so I can console her. Although her consoling would involve going to the bar(s) and drinking and I am not into that anymore. And my wallet is definitely not into that anymore.

Today I am super cleaning and trying to pack up the back room for uncle. I have no idea when I will be back at the showroom for more than a day or two so I want to be ready. And I would also like to get my shit out of here.

So, life is still a wonderful thing!

I am grateful for: learning, homemade honey-dijon marinade, and cucumber stress gel. (I know...I'm weird!)