join 'em
2002-09-02 at 6:36 p.m.

My new place is quiet. No dogs, no Ryan. I am still sad.

Finally said "If you can't beat em, join em" So I went down to the wedding on Saturday and had a blast! The band is local and awesome. I DID help out though. But had a fabulous time, felt great, looked great, dammit...I was 'on' that night. Stayed up way too late and then had to pick up my (almost) final load at the old place. Ryan wasn't there, but his new roommate and his girlfriend were. I was able to finish by 2pm and then spent some great unwinding time with some movies. I need to get this place in order so I am doing that tonight.

Will it ever feel better? I talked to him tonight about the Goodwill stuff I left in the garage. I felt so disconnected. Still can't understand how someone can go from love to hate in a mere 6 months. I s'pose I never will, huh?

Thinking about having a party for my birthday, but don't think I could invite the 'common' friends of Ryan and myself. I will be in Albuquerque and then Santa Fe next week. Maybe I will just stay there for my day.

"It's get-ting better all the ty-ee-ime"