show me the birthday money?
2004-09-15 at 7:06 p.m.

I am having problems with my email, so I rebuilt my desktop and deleted my cookies. WRONG thing to do! I lost my passwords to several things :( including one diaryland diary. So, since I couldn't get email I couldn't get the password I saved in some folder...somewhere. But I found it and looks like email is working for now. I also think that since I am using my old job's dial-up that I cannot get in when more than 2 ppl are signed in. Not sure.

So, birthday on Monday came and went. Same shit differnt day. The work people realized it was my day and conveniently had to run to the post office (gotta get the card and shit), and no mail in the mailbox to say "Hey girl, we love you and happy frickin' birthday" Did I expect anything less? Grandma did send a package on Sat., which of course I opened then and she got me the greatest pendant and coolest glass windchime, hangy thing. (Like I need another hangy thing in my house...remember the trailer flash?) Well, mom sent me a package as well and what the hell was it? A hangy thing, only not the coolest one I have seen, nor want to hang in or on my house...

So the whole "I am going to buy myself some new walking shoes and het my hair cut since I will have birthday money (checks) coming in the mail any day now" obviously didn't pan out. Then...Ryan and I went to a gala ball fundraising thing on Sat. and I bid on almost everything (since if you are the first to bid, someone will always outbid you and you are safe, but still look like you want to be aprt of the silent auction thing.). Well that backfired and I ended out spending $120 on stuff. 1. Gerbil treats- I really thought I was bidding on the dog treats, but the paper was positioned in the wrong place.... 2. crystal earrings- love them, or did for the first 30 minutes at which time I seemed to have lost one before i even got home. 3. A haircut and manicure-ok, JUST got my hair cut off last week and dealt with the streess of a new hairdresser and I have to do it all over again? 4. A one hour Hypnosis session- am excited about this, but wondering what to do with it...can I ask to be hypnotized for not wanting to eat anything with calories? Didn't think that would work so well either. Need some ideas.

Meanwhile I am super swamped at work, which is good. Went in at 7am, yes I blew off my morning walk, and got A LOT done. I would like to do the same tomorrow but I don't work until 10am and don't REALLY feel like putting in the extra 3 hours...

So, feeling well and putting right along. Need to update more or write more, so says the therapist. I will work on that!